As most of you know I competed in the Miss America pageant where I was honored to have made the top 10 and to have won a swimsuit award. If you've known me for awhile then you know how long I have struggled with my weight. Most of you may laugh and wonder about that statement. The truth is, I was 35 pounds lighter at Miss America than I was my senior year of high school. I was never obese but I was definitely not healthy. I would eat Sonic after school (a chicken club toaster and a milkshake to be exact) then go home and eat another dinner. I used to hide jars of icing in my room and eat it with a spoon. I was a binge eater. The struggle with my weight also brought about a lot of self confidence issues. There were many times I would go home crying from school because I had been made fun of. I was constantly comparing myself to my friends and I prayed every day that God would make me look like the girls in magazines. I realize now that it's not ideal to look like a girl on the front of a magazine. HOWEVER, it is important to be healthy. When I say healthy I mean exercise regularly and eat a clean diet. When I got back from Miss America I somewhat let myself go. I wasn't working out as much, I was eating things just because I could, and making up excuses whenever I wanted to eat something unhealthy. I do 100% believe in portion control. It is OKAY to eat a piece of cake every now and then but I wasn't doing that every now and then. I let old habits become habits again and now I have let a lower self esteem get the best of me. But this is my promise to you... I owe it to everyone who has believed in me and told me I was inspirational. We're going to get back on track together and we're going to make HEALTHY a habit. It is not realistic to be in competition mode 24/7 and train like I did before the pageant but being healthy and fit is realistic. If you want to do it with me then follow my blog to check in with my status!
I mentioned self esteem and self confidence issues... I have them. You may wonder how a girl who won Miss Georgia and did fairly well at Miss America had so many self confidence issues. I let other people's opinions get the best of me and I trust entirely too easy. BUT one day I saw a quote that opened my eyes... "If you live for a man's compliments you'll die from his criticism." If you are constantly worried about what other people think of your outer appearance, it's going to ruin you on the inside. The past few days I've done a lot of soul searching... maybe it's because I'm about to turn 23 and had a slight pre quarter life crisis. I have realized how much worth I have if I just believe in myself. If someone hates your outfit, who cares. It makes you happy. If a boy you like doesn't like you back, who cares. It's their loss and God has something better coming. These are all minor aspects of life but extremely relatable. I left Miss America extremely positive but somehow I've let my positivity slip a little bit. I was hit with a tough reality check... Not everyone has your best intentions in mind. It's a way of life. Sometimes you have to be your own hero. I'm writing this entire blog to be my own hero and gain the positivity and happiness that I had 3 months ago. I want to share some pictures that I promised I would never post. I have come to the realization that inspiring others is more important than being embarrassed on social media.
This is when I first started working out with Stephen about 4 years ago. Not obese or fat (I hate that word) but not fit. The picture next to it was right before I left for Miss America. Still proud of the transformation!
I don't know how old I was in this picture...
I don't know how old I am in this picture either but it's proof that eating clean and exercising regularly can make a huge difference. I hope by posting these people will realize that with hard work and determination all things are possible. I also want people to understand why being healthy means so much to me. My mom has told me that there was a time in my life when I never let her take a picture of me. I never want anyone else to feel that way. You don't have to be a size 0, 2, 4, 6 to love your body. You can be healthy and be none of those sizes. Every person's body is different. Some diets and workouts may not be the best for you but there is something out there for you. It doesn't have to take hours out of your day and you should never be starve yourself. EVER. I ate every three hours before Miss America but I also ate clean.
So... what's next for me? I've decided to take the LSAT again to apply to law school and I have been looking at potential jobs in and out of state for broadcast journalism (ESPN, CNN, FOX... gimme a call). My current job will be over June 21st so it's time to begin my search for my next adventure. I don't know exactly what it's going to be but I know it's going to be amazing since God is in complete control.
Ok so let's go through my new year's resolutions...
1. be a more frequent blogger
2. be HEALTHY, fit, and eat a cleaner diet
3. be POSITIVE
This is just an intro... I plan to post some quick and easy workouts, clean eating examples, and I promise to blog more about a day in the life of Miss Georgia. If you're in the state or just want to come, the Miss Fulton County pageant is THIS Saturday Jan. 11th! Oh and my birthday is tomorrow. I'm going to eat cake. 23 is an odd age but I'm ready for it to be the best yet (POSITIVITY)!
Until next time... xoxo
